mY 2009

today is the last day of 2009.
haha, none of my new yr resolution for 2009 came true. *sadly*


2009 was my first year as a married woman, wife to my hubbie, and being the daughter-in-law to my PIL.


it was a sad year to begin with. grandma was diagnosed with liver cancer sometime in late Dec 08. We were told it was the final stage. The cancer spreads from her colon cancer that was supposedly removed successfully 1 yr back. in a short span of time from mid Dec to mid Mar, i see grandma fade away. growing thinner and thinner day by day. grandma could be considered a pretty chubby person. by mid feb just before cny, she has grown so thin. we all knew that was the last cny we would spent with her. i remember we went on a frantic search for pearl jewellery as it is believed to say that if she were to wear it before she depart, she would have a better afterlife. And there, we had our last cny reunion dinner with grandma at her house, it was a feast but everyone was sad and forced ourselves to be happy. And on the morning of 15 Mar, grandma left us. i remember receiving a phone call from mum that qing said grandma was having breathing difficulties due to her phlegm, we were told to rush over. along the way, another phonecall came and said grandma was already feeling better. still, we went. however, when i reach grandma house, gu greeted us at the doorstep and told us grandma is going. i rushed in only to see a very pale grandma lying almost motionlessly on the bed. mum and the rest of the aunties are all crying out for her. kor tried to detect grandma's pulse but it was so weak. we immediately called the doc in. for the good whole 1 hr of waiting time, we were all in the agony of whether grandma was still with us. until mavis suddenly claimed that grandma's fingernails have all turned color. that was when i knew, we have lost grandma forever. the wake was held, it was the first funeral i attended. emotions were running high and low and so many incidents happened. on the day of the sending off, it rained in the wee morning and we were all so affected. all of us were praying for a good weather to send grandma off. thank god! the weather turned sunny and we walked along the familiar street sending grandma off on her last journey. the days to follow without grandma was difficult. i know its more emotional draining for mum. one thing for sure is the missing of our gathering at grandma house on sunday morning. a weekly ritual that we have all been doing since young. good bye grandma! you will always be in my memory.


i left tps in mar after a good 2.5 years there. a place where i met very nice bosses like lina, jazz, jasmine etc. a place so homely that i wondered if it was so beneficial for a company on the whole. still, i left feeling grateful to the ppl who have taught me so much.


ventured into family business which everyone else warned me against. it will be tough working for in laws. and yes indeed it was. everyone has their own opinions and given that its my fil, it was difficult to refute his points yet there were times which i felt his opinion was wrong. yet, i couldnt go too strong on my point. there were times also whereby i quarrel with hubbie over it. business is fortunately growing. the toughest period whereby we worked like there is no day and night, no weekends is finally over. also the era of manual invoices which i issue the invoices until my hand ach for days are also over. next yr with the move to the new factory, there will be a totally new sets of challenge.


on the whole, this yr was a very tough yr. there are somethings that are gone forever, but those memories will remain forever. there are things which are broken but i hope one day, it will be mended. though i am not sure when that will be. but i believe the challenges and trials that i have gone through in 2009 have made me a stronger person. with that, i hope 2010 would be a better year for me and everyone around me.